Some of my favorite memories from childhood were of solitude. Those moments I had to escape from the unknowable pressure of feeling responsible for my mother, her emotions and her health, were sweet release. At home, I spent untold hours outside playing and reading. I loved being in trees, yet…

Sometimes I feel like I’m obsessed with BPD now. And I should clarify with each post, that my mom has not been formally diagnosed with BPD. It was brought up to me as a possible diagnosis for her in my own therapy sessions by my therapist. …

I recently picked up a new book on BPD: Surviving a Borderline Parent. I feel very anxious today for the first time in a very long time. I realized that I often feel very uncomfortable as my personal growth needs ask me to push into a deeper understanding of the…

I had a lot of good love from my mom. Many moments of feeling safe and loved and close to her. I think that’s one of the most challenging parts of reflecting on the painful parts of our relationship. It’s also one of the more confusing parts of reading about…

I wanted a place on the internet where I could be completely anonymous. Talking about your mother in negative terms feels wrong, even though mothers, just as much as fathers, have the capacity to let us down. Talking about someone with very difficult mental heath struggles in negative terms feels…